I haven't been able to shake this feeling of yuck the last few days. It doesn't help that HB has been behaving like a bear. Cranky, grumpy and just generally hard to tolerate. He has moments of being loveable, but they pass.
The thing that is irritating me the most today is that he got madder at the dawg for digging a hole in the backyard than he did at Frodo - who shot a BB through the basement door window! In my mind, you don't get pissed at a dawg for behaving like a dawg - but you do consequence a kid for behaving like a little thug! But nope, not the golden child. He gets no punishment nor consequence. Which is why he is going to grow up to be just like Knothead - believing that he can simply stand still while the world revolves around him.
Drives me crazy.
She has been after us for more and more money. We voluntarily raised the child support last year (the right thing to do), AND the kids are here about 50% of the time. We gave her an extra $600 to help out with start of the year costs, and we bought some of the kids back to school stuff. We also have expenses here for them - we average about $200 a week in groceries because they are here so frequently, and when they go to school from here, we pay for lunches, book orders, etc. Well, Frodo made the A team in hockey which requires a more significant investment. She hinted that she needs help with that. Over my cold, fat body will that happen!
I'm cranky tonight.
Oh yeah. It was one year ago this weekend that we had our last miscarriage. Maybe that's why we're cranky.